So these past few days have been really crappy. I’m not going to dump it all out for everyone to see….let’s just say that after all is said and done I’m feeling beaten down and–for lack of a better metaphor–pecked to death. Feeling like I’ve really continued to give, and give and give some more only to hear that I did do enough, didn’t give enough, am not enough.

So I spent the better part of the day alternating between blah and having crying spells. Nothing would set either off–it would just happen. And I was–and still am–in a foul, foul mood.

This afternoon as I came back into my office after picking up kids from school, I noticed a ladybug crawling on my arm. Then the phone rang and I got busy talking to the caller and forgot about the ladybug. A few minutes later….and off the phone momentarily…..the ladybug decided to take a walk on my keyboard. Right about then my boss came out of his office and started talking about something he needed me to do, and again I ignored my new friend and went about my business (after all, I’m reminded that my time there is being paid for….I better not be thinking about/doing anything else but work).

I guess that my new little friend was tired of playing hard to get because no sooner did my boss walk back into his office did it fly right up and smack me in the cheek. Literally–right on my face, so I would have no choice but to take notice.

A quick trip to google and I come across this:

“This tiny little beetle brings with it a powerful message. Because the life cycle of the adult ladybug is short it teaches us how to release worries and enjoy our lives to the fullest. When it appears in our life it is telling us to “let go and let God.”

Seen often as a messenger of promise, the ladybug reconnects us with the joy of living. Fear and joy can not co-exist. We need to release our fears and return to love – this is one of the messages that the ladybug brings to us.

Ladybug teaches us how to restore our trust and faith in the great spirit. When the ladybug appears, it is telling us to get out of our own way and allow the great spirit to enter into our lives.”

Now I know–intellectually–that ladybugs typically increase this time of year due to the temperature change, etc. But right now I’m choosing to believe that my new little friend just knew I needed a gentle nudge (in the guise of a slap in the face) to let go and get on.