Others look forward to December for the obvious reasons: Christmas, snow, winter break. I look forward to December because gorgeous souls like Kat McNally offer what’s been come to know as #Reverb. It’s a series of daily prompts that encourage me to reflect on the past year and what matters to me. It’s a deep breath of fresh air, a steaming cup of homemade chai, a warm blanket, brand new fuzzy socks, and a mirror held up in the most gentle, loving way.
Today’s prompt is this: Today, I invite you to take a quiet moment to consider: what can you say right now with certainty?
I struggle with certainty. I think that once I claim something as a sure thing, the universe laughs and finds a way to remind me that even though I think I know a thing or two, I don’t. So that’s the first thing of which I am certain: I know nothing.
I can say with certainty that I am lucky. That being a mom is the most wonderful gift I never knew I wanted. That being single and middle aged and fat is harder than anyone cares to admit. That loneliness stings, and feels like a fresh new cut every day, no matter how long I’ve flown solo. That Amy Poehler is funnier listened to than read. That friends are hard to come by and even harder to keep. That red wine makes me happy. That as I stumble into 45, my skin is drier and my belly is looser and my vision is fuzzier, both literally and figuratively. That apologies are sometimes hollow, ‘I love yous’ are often rote, but the feelings behind both are precious. That I should stop watching Criminal Minds before going to sleep. That I am lucky.