I've been stuck lately. Consumed with the thought that nothing I have to share is original, much less inspirational. I type and then backspace, reminding myself with each stroke that what I just thought has not only already been expressed, but expressed more eloquently, or with a sharper wit or a funnier joke.
So I've given in to the backspace and the delete key, and I've talked myself into believing that I'm not special or interesting. In business speak, I have no USP (unique selling position). I'm just like everyone else, with similar experiences and goals. A sheep among the herd, hoping for leopard skin but stuck in pelt.
Sitting down at my desk a few minutes ago, I caught a glimpse of my white board. I try to be serious and organized, and had a color coded list of current and potential projects listed there. My daughter had other ideas, and at some point when I wasn't watching doodled a variety of symbols and words in her own little love letter to me.

Seeing that, I was struck with what I've been missing all this time: even though what I do isn't worthy of being splashed about or pinned or Google-plussed, it is remarkable. The joy and beauty of my multitude of ordinary moments is overlooked when, really, I should be celebrating each one for the miracle it is.
When Erin beams with a big, toothy grin and bright, sparkly eyes because we found a way to twist her wet hair to produce a cascade of beautiful curls in the morning, I am reminded that beauty is everywhere, but only if we care enough to notice and appreciate it.
When Nicholas curls up with me first thing in the morning for a fleeting but warm cuddle before he bounds out of bed and declares 'let's do this thing!', I am reminded that it takes only a moment to connect, that we should do the most important things first, and that 99% of life is attitude rather than circumstance.
When Adam brings me my first cup of coffee, with just a little too much half and half, and pecks me on the forehead in his attempt to get me up early, I am reminded that even teenagers know how to say 'I love you' without saying a word.
I forget in my stuckness that I am surrounded by countless things, gestures and people filled with at once ordinary yet miraculous thoughts, desires and wishes. That even though I will never be written about as a hero to many, I am important to the three who call me mom, and that the little choices I make have the power to transform ordinary days to indelible memories.




Mom, daughter, sister, friend...busy yet blessed single mom to three amazing kids who continually show me the ropes. Writer, reader, yoga student, aspiring runner, book and music lover. Occasionally artistically inspired, continually curious, optimistically challenged, adventure-seeking, caffeine addicted and sleep deprived, a continuing work in progress. Finding my way, one step at a time.

5 Responses
This is beautiful, Lisa. Thank you for sharing it!
Loved this post! Your kids sound wonderful too! I have those moments too, but that means I am thinking too much! Just write what is in your heart, there are many of us who love reading your posts~Lisa
This really is a beautiful post. Loved it! PS–Found you on Blogstar!
I too loved this post! I've been feeling the same way lately, in fact last weeks post was about just that, staring at a blank screen and wishing for something to write. I hate when those feeling of doubt come and I too know that I need to push through them to get to the next level. I love how you can see the great in your life! Sounds like you have a wonderful family!! Take care!
You've beautifully expressed what so many of us go through! Kids really do have a way of grounding us and reminding us about what is important. I enjoyed this post, thanks.